4komatose

April 5th was my 29th birthday. That means I’m now starting my 30th year. While that might not mean I’m old yet, it does mean I’m no longer young. Okay, well, technically next year.

So, that means I’m less than one year away from my “mid-life”. That’s kind of depressing. I look back at my life, and I have to wonder at what I have/have not accomplished.

1. I graduated high school with an advanced diploma with honors. I did a half-assed job to get it, but that’s the highest degree my HS offered.

2. I was part of a music group in the late 90’s called TurnStyle. We were what was known as a mod group. It was fun. Ended badly. The other primary founding member of the group, Peter S., wants nothing to do with me. Don’t know why. At this point I’ve gotten over it and no longer care… much.

3. Took 8 years to get a stupid Associate’s Degree in Business and an Accounting Clerk certificate. You can chalk that up to not really knowing what I wanted to do, and drifting from one major to another for 6 years.

4. Been married for 5 3/4 years. I still remember my wedding day like it was yesterday. Best day of my life.

5. Had a falling out with my best man/best friend of 13 years. Have no idea where we currently stand. I’m still really sad about that.

6. My brother neglected to call me on my birthday. First time that has ever happened. Not sure how I feel about that. My best friend actually did the same thing. Again, not sure how I feel about that.

7. I have no children. And I think that depresses me more than anything. My wife and I want 3 children minimum. But she wants them two years apart. That means, if all goes according to plan. I’ll be in my late 50’s before the last one is out of high school. Over 60 before they’re out of college. That doesn’t leave much time left for them to have a father as adults. And that really makes me sad.

8. I am part of the creative team of a marginally successful web comic. Which one is that, you ask? Well, 4komatose of course. And it’s only successful because of readers like you. Thank you. =)

Birthdays tend to make me very retrospective and melancholy. The retrospective part is one thing. That’s normal. But they really shouldn’t depress me so. And yesterday, honestly, is the first day where I really enjoyed the whole day. Usually, I get depressed about half way through. But, I have a better job, a vacation coming up that marks the beginning of our trying to have kids, and a general uptake of good in my life. So I’m not terribly sure why I’m so down today.

Issue #39 Update
On a side note, I don’t know when issue #39 will be fixed. I’m sorry it has taken so long, but I’ve done all I can to try and expedite the fix. I will definitely let you know when it occurs.